
“We pray for the big things and forget to give thanks for the ordinary, small (and yet really not small) gifts.” – Dietrich Bonhoeffer
Jacob was returning home after running for his life years earlier because Esau had threatened to kill him. As he got close to home, Jacob heard Esau was approaching with 400 men. He prayed desperate prayers for himself and his family.
Later that night, though, he went off by himself and experienced God’s presence in the form of an angel. They wrestled all night until, at last, we are told Jacob wouldn’t give up fighting until the angel blessed him. He was done asking for specifics and wanted only God’s blessing. His prayer was answered in a most unexpected way: The blessing was a new name and a limp, both of which he accepted as coming from the hand of a loving God.
That makes me wonder if we trust God enough to stop praying for specific requests, at least for awhile, and, instead, spend more of our prayer time worshiping him? Maybe for awhile we could offer prayers of submission to his will instead of offering our list of requests. What if we dared to pray “Bless me, Lord. All I need is you and whatever blessing you decide to give.”
If we really believe he knows better than we do what would meet our deepest needs, it would be enough if we just ask him to bless us and then accept whatever he gives as coming from his hand. His answer to us might be as unexpected as Jacob’s was. But it was exactly what he needed. Do we dare to pray as he did? All I need is your blessing, Lord.
“The Lord bless you
and keep you;
the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;.” – Numbers 6:24-25